AGHHH! i have found out that the box of condoms isnt as big as i thought. so i am just giving suet and or cat. okay actually it is quite big. I AM JUST SCARED THAT my parents will find out. -.- ahhh!
GAH SEC FOUR FAREWELL TOMORROW!
geesh. i hope i can still remember them next year. its quite sad, because this sunday i was looking through last year's concert notes, and i didnt remember chiu kuan. gah.
ZOMG CAT IS SO ADORABLE. and the chewy cookies were.. chewy! i think i liked them a lot not because they were like really really good, but because i havent eaten chewy cookies for -gasp- a year plus. since they took away the tollhouse cookies. I WILL BUY TIRAMISU TOMORROW.
and i will make jessica come with me haha. i tell you today she really binged. like 3 bags of cookies and 2 muffins. vic, jiali and i were snorting like crazy. NYAHAHA.
jiali is so adorable! i really want to see what her brother looks like. (: DEBORAH MY LOVE YOU MUST LET ME PHOTOGRAPH YOU TOMORROW!
ahh sec 4 farewell. 11 more cards to go.
crap i wcrewed up cat's present. DAMN I AM GETTING MORE AND MORE INFATUATED WITH HER EACH DAY. she is so. VOLUPTUOUS. i will make her write to me.
ahhhhhhh! zomg sec 4s dont go! crap i hope i dont cry tomorrow. if eliza cries i will definitely cry so PLEASE ELIZA DONT CRY. i hope i can get a picture of cat crying.
GAH SEC FOUR FAREWELL TOMORROW!
geesh. i hope i can still remember them next year. its quite sad, because this sunday i was looking through last year's concert notes, and i didnt remember chiu kuan. gah.
ZOMG CAT IS SO ADORABLE. and the chewy cookies were.. chewy! i think i liked them a lot not because they were like really really good, but because i havent eaten chewy cookies for -gasp- a year plus. since they took away the tollhouse cookies. I WILL BUY TIRAMISU TOMORROW.
and i will make jessica come with me haha. i tell you today she really binged. like 3 bags of cookies and 2 muffins. vic, jiali and i were snorting like crazy. NYAHAHA.
jiali is so adorable! i really want to see what her brother looks like. (: DEBORAH MY LOVE YOU MUST LET ME PHOTOGRAPH YOU TOMORROW!
ahh sec 4 farewell. 11 more cards to go.
crap i wcrewed up cat's present. DAMN I AM GETTING MORE AND MORE INFATUATED WITH HER EACH DAY. she is so. VOLUPTUOUS. i will make her write to me.
ahhhhhhh! zomg sec 4s dont go! crap i hope i dont cry tomorrow. if eliza cries i will definitely cry so PLEASE ELIZA DONT CRY. i hope i can get a picture of cat crying.
Sam (: - 7/31/2006 07:40:00 PM
Saturday, July 29, 2006
today's cathecism was really. insightful.
i really think the part about homosexuals was really good, because they surprisingly didnt judge them and say that those people are confused about their sexuality. i mean, i feel really sad for lesbians and gays sometimes because our society is really heterosexual, no matter how open they say our soceity is.
"the church usually segregates lesbians and gays because it is not in the Bible. But God still loves all of us, whether gay or lesbian. Just try not to lead an active gay lifestyle."
"It is wrong to look down on gays and treat them as lesser human beings".
"Whether the guy you date is a good guy or a bad guy, he is still a horny guy. only that good guys have this much [peers into tiny gap between fingers] self-control."
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aghhhhhhhhh. i am not in the sec 4 missing mood because i am still in this surreal state. like farewell is still a loooong way away so dont think about it or else i will get all emo.
aghhhh i cant believe it! i am still decideing what kind of format i should write my notes in. like what paper and stuff.
i really think the part about homosexuals was really good, because they surprisingly didnt judge them and say that those people are confused about their sexuality. i mean, i feel really sad for lesbians and gays sometimes because our society is really heterosexual, no matter how open they say our soceity is.
"the church usually segregates lesbians and gays because it is not in the Bible. But God still loves all of us, whether gay or lesbian. Just try not to lead an active gay lifestyle."
"It is wrong to look down on gays and treat them as lesser human beings".
"Whether the guy you date is a good guy or a bad guy, he is still a horny guy. only that good guys have this much [peers into tiny gap between fingers] self-control."
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aghhhhhhhhh. i am not in the sec 4 missing mood because i am still in this surreal state. like farewell is still a loooong way away so dont think about it or else i will get all emo.
aghhhh i cant believe it! i am still decideing what kind of format i should write my notes in. like what paper and stuff.
Sam (: - 7/29/2006 09:58:00 PM
geet trying to act cute and camera shy. PUH-LEASE! (:
cat's uhmm GUESS.
i insist that i look sweet.
AHH I THINK THIS IS LIKE THE MOST AMUSING PHOTO EVER.
eww she looks like a rabbit. and i am sorry wanjoo to have had discovered that prefects wear skirts and not culottes. my eyes. ow.
alto 2 sec ones. VARSHA IS SO CUTE. (1st from right.)
jac. and AH! AH! AH! my one true love.
alto twos. (: can you see me?
what's the difference between a guitar and tuna fish?
you can tune a guitar, but you cant tuna fish!
<33 size="1">and i am trying not to stress over THE ISSUE. thanks peiying.
Sam (: - 7/29/2006 05:58:00 PM
Monday, July 24, 2006
grah. i feel annoyed, because people dont take me seriously. okay people might snort because they'd be like WAH SAM ALWAYS PLAYPLAY THEN SUDDENLY WANT TO BE SERIOUS.
but its been in me for really long. ugh i mean just because i am outgoing and stuff i cant be sad or serious? which is why i always feel like people arent there for me. and stuff. and i get bullied a lot.
I AM JUST TIRED OF THE WORLD. in a week or so i will love it again.
yay. i try to say joyously.
oh freak. the sec 4s are leaving next tuesday. UGHHHHHHHH. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i dont even want to think of what choir will be like. i mean i m not really close to the sec 3s or sec 1s. and in my alto section i m only close to geet, jac and CAT.
and shuyu because we always discuss the standard of choir and what's wrong with it. and how its different from other choirs.
i mean, with shuyu, i feel like my view is IMPORTANT. it matters, at least to her.
oh gosh. i think i m suffering from post-choralfest blues.
i am so tired. i want a break. from life. and school. today was.. annoying. jessica was being bratty.
neh. i love jiali and vic and debb. and jessica.
HAHA THE SEC TALK WILL BE INTERESTING BECAUSE OF US. BECAUSE WE ASK QUESTIONS LIKE HOW DO GAYS AND LESBIANS HAVE SEX. nyahahhahaha.!!!
is amused.
grah.grah.grah.
but its been in me for really long. ugh i mean just because i am outgoing and stuff i cant be sad or serious? which is why i always feel like people arent there for me. and stuff. and i get bullied a lot.
I AM JUST TIRED OF THE WORLD. in a week or so i will love it again.
yay. i try to say joyously.
oh freak. the sec 4s are leaving next tuesday. UGHHHHHHHH. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i dont even want to think of what choir will be like. i mean i m not really close to the sec 3s or sec 1s. and in my alto section i m only close to geet, jac and CAT.
and shuyu because we always discuss the standard of choir and what's wrong with it. and how its different from other choirs.
i mean, with shuyu, i feel like my view is IMPORTANT. it matters, at least to her.
oh gosh. i think i m suffering from post-choralfest blues.
i am so tired. i want a break. from life. and school. today was.. annoying. jessica was being bratty.
neh. i love jiali and vic and debb. and jessica.
HAHA THE SEC TALK WILL BE INTERESTING BECAUSE OF US. BECAUSE WE ASK QUESTIONS LIKE HOW DO GAYS AND LESBIANS HAVE SEX. nyahahhahaha.!!!
is amused.
grah.grah.grah.
Sam (: - 7/24/2006 08:25:00 PM
Sunday, July 23, 2006
- Syaq A2 TKSS gvanizo-syaque@hotmail.com http://lyfeworthlivin.blogspot.com
- Yichan A2 NY somethingimperfect@hotmail.com http://sealedkisses.livejournal.com
- Eunice A2 RV sagittarius_291191@hotmail.com http://yeapie.ebloggy.com
- Adeline A2 RV adelinetyx@hotmail.com
- Zhiying A2 RV angelic_girl_zy@hotmail.com
- Huaypeng A2 RV christine_ping_2@hotmail.com
- Yap JiaminA2RV weird_jun91@hotmail.com http://fading-awae-slowli.blogspot.com
- Sihui A2 FM sihui_galz91@hotmail.com http://-colormylife.blogspot.com
- Zengjun A2TKSS friends-life@hotmail.com http://friends-life.blogspot.com
Sam (: - 7/23/2006 07:52:00 PM
our shoes! eww. guess which is my leg.
eliza! and zengjun! okay she looks weird here.
sixuan! ahhh complexion.
i m too tired to blog about every photo which i look disgusting in. -.- nyah sad.
yichan said that there is something good in everyone. NYAH THERE IS NOTHING PHYSICALLY GOOD ABOUT ME. i mope.
Sam (: - 7/23/2006 10:37:00 AM
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
AHHHH. Choralfest was so fun! And I got to see a side of Zan I have never seen before. AHHHHHHHHHHHH THE GUY IN THE PEITMONT CHOIR IS SO HOT! Korean blood! Hot! Nice complexion! HOT! Defined jawline! HOT! Ahh! And zan crushes him too. Which I find amusing.
ZOMG THE PLUMP GUY IN THE JC CHOIR BASS IS SO CUTE I WANT TO MAKE HIM INTO A TEDDY BEAR! And the guy in choir 1/3 is really funny. And fierce. But whatever.
i hate tsubasai! i m standing next to the tenors and basses and you can smell the GUY SMELL. yes it is smelly. and it makes me nauseous. but the allegra girl is really nice.
ZOMG TODAY WAS FUN CAUSE I REALLY GOT INTO THE SONGS. ahhhhhhh i dont want choralfest to end! i m in holiday mood again.
but what i hate about choralfest is the people identify you by rg girl this rg girl that. like today people called us rg girls come here! like hello, i have a identity! gah it pisses me of when people do that. but anyway, i can see our section is opening up. YAY! and yichan is really nice! and i still remember that time when i told mish that she was UNREACHABLE. but now she just thinks i m weird so whatever. i have this feeling that yibei shaq and sihui think i am bimbotic.
ZOMG THE PLUMP GUY IN THE JC CHOIR BASS IS SO CUTE I WANT TO MAKE HIM INTO A TEDDY BEAR! And the guy in choir 1/3 is really funny. And fierce. But whatever.
i hate tsubasai! i m standing next to the tenors and basses and you can smell the GUY SMELL. yes it is smelly. and it makes me nauseous. but the allegra girl is really nice.
ZOMG TODAY WAS FUN CAUSE I REALLY GOT INTO THE SONGS. ahhhhhhh i dont want choralfest to end! i m in holiday mood again.
but what i hate about choralfest is the people identify you by rg girl this rg girl that. like today people called us rg girls come here! like hello, i have a identity! gah it pisses me of when people do that. but anyway, i can see our section is opening up. YAY! and yichan is really nice! and i still remember that time when i told mish that she was UNREACHABLE. but now she just thinks i m weird so whatever. i have this feeling that yibei shaq and sihui think i am bimbotic.
Sam (: - 7/19/2006 10:42:00 PM
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
choralfest was fun! but i feel really stupid because i went to vch instead of ccab and i spent 7 bucks on the cab. ZOMG I ALMOST CRIED LAH!
but anyway. then eliza and i were talking animatedly, and suddenly yibei, sihui and shq said that we talk in a very rg way. okay. right.
but anyway. then eliza and i were talking animatedly, and suddenly yibei, sihui and shq said that we talk in a very rg way. okay. right.
Sam (: - 7/18/2006 10:17:00 PM
i feel so insignificant. damn. i used to wake up every morning with the idea that the world loved me (if not the whole world, at least a big part of it). and now i m finding that i am more and more wrong everyday.
you toy with my feelings. and i keep telling myself i wont give in to your niceness. but i forgive so easily, and i start to like you again. and i trust, but i keep thinking, will i be hurt again? call me weak.
damn you. i love you too much to give up on what we have and you know it.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
i don't know what to say, i'm numbed because of all the things that have been happening. and i guess my personal problems have shrouded me out too so i can't say much to help you now. because this is how things are, and things change a lot. something like that, i'm so sad i tell you.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
and sam i'm sad too because you didn't really take me seriously when i said i was sad today. i mean its REAL you know. i know you can't help it if you don't know how to comfort me! but sometimes some friends of mine think a person like me all bubbly and blah would never be sad
, so i tried to be like you. says:
and they think i'm joking or seeking attention when i say that
, so i tried to be like you. says:
but the thing is, when i say i'm sad, IM REALLY SAD. because when i'm just abit sad, i wouldn't tell anyone
, so i tried to be like you. says:
i'd fix the problem on my own.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
but i couldn't today.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
i was too tired. emotionally.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
okay.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
i m really sorry.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
i just.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
i was really confused.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
yeah precisely.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
we're in the same boat.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
we can't help each other out until we fix ourselves out.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
and you know what.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
it shows.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
i've been observing all you batchmates.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
it seems like everyone's a little hurt somewhere.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
no.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
but i ve solved it.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
and even though we smile and laugh and joke with our new friends.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
there's still that pain.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
oh.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
oh?
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
there's still a little of us.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
that hurts.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
and we smile. and prance, and act bimbotic and crazy and stuff.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
and try to hide it.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
to make it go away.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
but it doesnt.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
and then you go home.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
and it hurts even more.
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i need to be loved. like sixuan says. when the whole world sees you as a bubbly, high and crazy girl all the time, i m sort of.. dehumanised. and they dont realise that you are sad and stupid and have low periods in your life. they just think you're not being serious. i feel so fake. today was a total facade, trying to cover up my hurts.
but confusing as this is, i still love you. and if you really need anyone to talk to, i m here. i hope, as much as i can.
you toy with my feelings. and i keep telling myself i wont give in to your niceness. but i forgive so easily, and i start to like you again. and i trust, but i keep thinking, will i be hurt again? call me weak.
damn you. i love you too much to give up on what we have and you know it.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
i don't know what to say, i'm numbed because of all the things that have been happening. and i guess my personal problems have shrouded me out too so i can't say much to help you now. because this is how things are, and things change a lot. something like that, i'm so sad i tell you.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
and sam i'm sad too because you didn't really take me seriously when i said i was sad today. i mean its REAL you know. i know you can't help it if you don't know how to comfort me! but sometimes some friends of mine think a person like me all bubbly and blah would never be sad
, so i tried to be like you. says:
and they think i'm joking or seeking attention when i say that
, so i tried to be like you. says:
but the thing is, when i say i'm sad, IM REALLY SAD. because when i'm just abit sad, i wouldn't tell anyone
, so i tried to be like you. says:
i'd fix the problem on my own.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
but i couldn't today.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
i was too tired. emotionally.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
okay.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
i m really sorry.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
i just.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
i was really confused.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
yeah precisely.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
we're in the same boat.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
we can't help each other out until we fix ourselves out.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
and you know what.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
it shows.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
i've been observing all you batchmates.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
it seems like everyone's a little hurt somewhere.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
no.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
but i ve solved it.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
and even though we smile and laugh and joke with our new friends.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
there's still that pain.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
oh.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
oh?
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
there's still a little of us.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
that hurts.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
and we smile. and prance, and act bimbotic and crazy and stuff.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
and try to hide it.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
to make it go away.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
but it doesnt.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
and then you go home.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
and it hurts even more.
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i need to be loved. like sixuan says. when the whole world sees you as a bubbly, high and crazy girl all the time, i m sort of.. dehumanised. and they dont realise that you are sad and stupid and have low periods in your life. they just think you're not being serious. i feel so fake. today was a total facade, trying to cover up my hurts.
but confusing as this is, i still love you. and if you really need anyone to talk to, i m here. i hope, as much as i can.
Sam (: - 7/18/2006 09:13:00 PM
Monday, July 17, 2006
i just feel.. really disappointed.
i thought i was the one who could be there for you.
it really hurt me when i saw your post. i read it, and i couldnt believe what you were writing. and i read it. and read it. and it hurt so bad.
i thought i knew you. but i didnt.
when you trust, you always get hurt.
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i know i m immature and loud. i show my emotions. but that's part of who i am. i cant just grow up for your sake. and if you cant accept that. well, i dont know.
i know everyone will be like sam is such a emo loser.
so call me weak. i m just tired of this week. its brought out the best and worst in people, and honestly i dont want to see anymore.
if you hate me, just pretend to be nice to me.
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i m irresponsible. i m childish. i m blunt. i dont floss.
so sue me.
who do you think you are anyway.
i thought i was the one who could be there for you.
it really hurt me when i saw your post. i read it, and i couldnt believe what you were writing. and i read it. and read it. and it hurt so bad.
i thought i knew you. but i didnt.
when you trust, you always get hurt.
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i know i m immature and loud. i show my emotions. but that's part of who i am. i cant just grow up for your sake. and if you cant accept that. well, i dont know.
i know everyone will be like sam is such a emo loser.
so call me weak. i m just tired of this week. its brought out the best and worst in people, and honestly i dont want to see anymore.
if you hate me, just pretend to be nice to me.
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i m irresponsible. i m childish. i m blunt. i dont floss.
so sue me.
who do you think you are anyway.
Sam (: - 7/17/2006 08:49:00 PM
Saturday, July 15, 2006
today's open house just made everything so real. you know at the ny concert,peiying said, what if we get silver and i thought it was outrageous. and today made everything clear.
you know what its just so hard to keep discipline. i know i am one of those people, maybe the only one who keeps on telling themselves that 'oh i want to bring the discipline up' then at the next choir prac its like oh WHO'S PULLING UP PEOPLE'S SKIRTS? WHO'S TALKING AGAIN?
but its so hard, because you love rgs choir so much, and you love all these people in it. I mean oh dont talk for the whole choir practice. i mean, choir will be so dead and our singing will be so dead. I love singing a lot and it is one of the main reasons why i love RGS choir so much.
its so sad because you can see that this week the choir's atmosphere has been well, kinda tense. And that's just the beginning. Hopefully.
this post is so contradicting and stupid because i am feeling very confused right now about what i am feeling. i love the rgs choir a lot, and i do want to brign the discipline up, but it really requires an iron will. I mean its like usually throughout the week, especially seniors, you usually see them with their friends so its quite maluating to suddenly rush up to them and grab them in all sorts of weird places and proclaim your love for them. Then suddenly you see all these people that you havent talked to for quite a while and i am filled with so much love.
i hope i can exercise more self-control. BLEAH THIS IS STARTING TO LOOK LIKE ALL THE OTHER POSTS. this is very disappointing.
and its really sad how our batch is very clearly starting to break up into very clear cliques.
the power struggle thing is really starting to show in our batch. what she said today really made me realise that.
Sam (: - 7/15/2006 08:38:00 PM
Saturday, July 08, 2006
boo. nanyang concert was.. interesting. i didnt like the gowns. the mamma mia and dancing queen's interpretations were a bit too choral i think.
i got kinda scared last night because suet said it s not outrageous that we could win a silver. i thought that rg choir was good. and i still do. i mean i thought we were the work-sort of hard and can get gold kinda standard, and if we work really hard we could get gold with honours. but what suet said was like we have to struggle to maintain gold, and thats quite scary.
hwa chong voices. uhm actually they were quite good. if only they took out the sops! ahh! like all the parts were singing, and then the sops came in and you can see people cringe. but I LIKE THE SOLO FOR WADE IN THE WATER'S VOICE. ahh. i vant (i attempt to say in a russian accent).
yay. vic now you shall not strike this off your list of regulars.
gahhhh i havent gone for choir for one week. I AM DEPRESSED! i hope i dont get labelled as a ponner! ahhhhhhhh i want choir. i am scared for prague. from choralfest you can tell that the other choral excellence choirs are really good, they look at their scores and analyse the different parts to see wherer they get their notes from and stuff, but we are like just happy-go-lucky, like if we can get the note, then good lor, but if cannot we just listen to _________(insert senior's name).
which is quite bad. because we rely too much on our seniors, and so some people feel that they can just slack and then afterward just depend on your seniors to teach you your parts or something, which is quite bad.
i really hope we can do well for prague and SYF next year. we really need to have a full song concert next year.
yuck the nasal spray smells DISGUSTING.
i got kinda scared last night because suet said it s not outrageous that we could win a silver. i thought that rg choir was good. and i still do. i mean i thought we were the work-sort of hard and can get gold kinda standard, and if we work really hard we could get gold with honours. but what suet said was like we have to struggle to maintain gold, and thats quite scary.
hwa chong voices. uhm actually they were quite good. if only they took out the sops! ahh! like all the parts were singing, and then the sops came in and you can see people cringe. but I LIKE THE SOLO FOR WADE IN THE WATER'S VOICE. ahh. i vant (i attempt to say in a russian accent).
yay. vic now you shall not strike this off your list of regulars.
gahhhh i havent gone for choir for one week. I AM DEPRESSED! i hope i dont get labelled as a ponner! ahhhhhhhh i want choir. i am scared for prague. from choralfest you can tell that the other choral excellence choirs are really good, they look at their scores and analyse the different parts to see wherer they get their notes from and stuff, but we are like just happy-go-lucky, like if we can get the note, then good lor, but if cannot we just listen to _________(insert senior's name).
which is quite bad. because we rely too much on our seniors, and so some people feel that they can just slack and then afterward just depend on your seniors to teach you your parts or something, which is quite bad.
i really hope we can do well for prague and SYF next year. we really need to have a full song concert next year.
yuck the nasal spray smells DISGUSTING.
Sam (: - 7/08/2006 06:55:00 PM