I 've been wanting to blog about this for so long. Its hard to make friends with really nice people, because then you dont know whether they're treating you as a friend, or just as an acquitance they're putting up with and be nice to because they're too nice not to.
): What if they're trying subtly to drop hints to me! That they don't like me and want me to stay away! I am not a good hint-reader bahh. Okay like what I said to Chanel one day, if you want me to stay away and not bother you anymore, just say Happy Father's Day to me.
What is wrong with me! Maybe I'm just too over-analytical of what people say and do. It's unhealthy.
): What if they're trying subtly to drop hints to me! That they don't like me and want me to stay away! I am not a good hint-reader bahh. Okay like what I said to Chanel one day, if you want me to stay away and not bother you anymore, just say Happy Father's Day to me.
What is wrong with me! Maybe I'm just too over-analytical of what people say and do. It's unhealthy.
Sam (: - 8/31/2006 11:16:00 PM
Teacher's day was so amusing.
Yay letter! Letters are always good. But Jessica ponned school. Again. It's kinda expected now after she ponned National Day Celebrations, Racial Harmony Day and other school stuff. ):
Aces day thinggum kinda sucked, what with the girl totally not knowing the steps WITH THE PAPER IN HER HAND and the teacher next to me trying to thwack my boobies everytime I got to close. Haha Bala looks funny, with her boobs having the reaction time thingy going on (you know when people have so big boobs that when they move their boobs jiggle like crazy like 5 seconds later).
Teacher's day concert was.... very. painful? I'm sorry, I just think that that girl.. needs help. Ugh why am I so mean! But my friend said she sounded much better during rehearsals and stuff so maybe its stage fright? And she takes voice lessons! Which means she is rich! Voice lessons are expensive! I want voice lessons! Sitting in the gallery is good because Fiona and I were observing the seniors' expressions slowly turn from hmm-i-hope-this-girl-is-good to OHMYGOSH-WHAT-WAS-SHE-THINKING (Ahaha this applies to Suet mostly). Fiona and I were like AHAHAHA whyyyyyyyyyyyyy whyyyyyyyyy whyyyyy!
But the handbell girls were cute. (: Elaine bwahaha SO CUTE! i lubbiewubbies elaine. Elaine we shall make lubbiewubbies together (;
Right.
J TOH! Ohmygosh J Toh! He! is! so! cute! (Geet thinks he is sexy O_o) He! is! so! cute! I so miss Philo lessons with him ):
Ugh in the morning I was so pissed! I met uhm one of the Alto 2 Sec 1s in the morning, and I tried to act all friendly and say Hi and wave nicely, and she like dismissively nodded her approval. Wth I am so pissed! Like hello, rude much?
Ohmygosh there was this ickle kinda plump and sweaty girl who came up just before Pseudonym was performing, and she was like repeating, PSEUDONYM IS PERFORMING! over and over again histerically and she PUSHED VIC AND JIALI APART AND STUCK HER SWEATY BODY THERE. Obviously Jiali was too nice to say anything, so I was like trying to hint by saying really loudly," Ugh I hate it when people just cut into other people's classes space." And she pretended to not hear it.
Eh then Vic, Eliza and I went out. Bah at Zara I got kinda moody and pissed because they were like saying how poor/stingy my family is, but I really don't see the point of splurging on clothing when I grow out of clothes SO. FAST. Like yeah. Bah.
Then we went to Cineleisure to watch Click and before the movie we went to play air hockey. I hate the stupid thingys that you hold they are so slimy! Sortof. And I had no hand-eye coordination and arm strength, so uh you can guess that I didn't do very well. :/
Click was so sad! But the beginning was funny! I think the guy's daughter is really really pretty when she grows up! And no the moisture on my shirt wasnt tears, it was uhhh DROOL! Yes that's it! DROOL! Ohmygosh I feel so cheated of my feelings like the ending was sweet, but dumb! It's like I uhhm drooled for nothing. But I think Adam Sandler's a really good actor.
The people behind us were so annoying. Like when the people were having sex they'd scream EW SICKKKK! Or laugh really really loudly.
Yay letter! Letters are always good. But Jessica ponned school. Again. It's kinda expected now after she ponned National Day Celebrations, Racial Harmony Day and other school stuff. ):
Aces day thinggum kinda sucked, what with the girl totally not knowing the steps WITH THE PAPER IN HER HAND and the teacher next to me trying to thwack my boobies everytime I got to close. Haha Bala looks funny, with her boobs having the reaction time thingy going on (you know when people have so big boobs that when they move their boobs jiggle like crazy like 5 seconds later).
Teacher's day concert was.... very. painful? I'm sorry, I just think that that girl.. needs help. Ugh why am I so mean! But my friend said she sounded much better during rehearsals and stuff so maybe its stage fright? And she takes voice lessons! Which means she is rich! Voice lessons are expensive! I want voice lessons! Sitting in the gallery is good because Fiona and I were observing the seniors' expressions slowly turn from hmm-i-hope-this-girl-is-good to OHMYGOSH-WHAT-WAS-SHE-THINKING (Ahaha this applies to Suet mostly). Fiona and I were like AHAHAHA whyyyyyyyyyyyyy whyyyyyyyyy whyyyyy!
But the handbell girls were cute. (: Elaine bwahaha SO CUTE! i lubbiewubbies elaine. Elaine we shall make lubbiewubbies together (;
Right.
J TOH! Ohmygosh J Toh! He! is! so! cute! (Geet thinks he is sexy O_o) He! is! so! cute! I so miss Philo lessons with him ):
Ugh in the morning I was so pissed! I met uhm one of the Alto 2 Sec 1s in the morning, and I tried to act all friendly and say Hi and wave nicely, and she like dismissively nodded her approval. Wth I am so pissed! Like hello, rude much?
Ohmygosh there was this ickle kinda plump and sweaty girl who came up just before Pseudonym was performing, and she was like repeating, PSEUDONYM IS PERFORMING! over and over again histerically and she PUSHED VIC AND JIALI APART AND STUCK HER SWEATY BODY THERE. Obviously Jiali was too nice to say anything, so I was like trying to hint by saying really loudly," Ugh I hate it when people just cut into other people's classes space." And she pretended to not hear it.
Eh then Vic, Eliza and I went out. Bah at Zara I got kinda moody and pissed because they were like saying how poor/stingy my family is, but I really don't see the point of splurging on clothing when I grow out of clothes SO. FAST. Like yeah. Bah.
Then we went to Cineleisure to watch Click and before the movie we went to play air hockey. I hate the stupid thingys that you hold they are so slimy! Sortof. And I had no hand-eye coordination and arm strength, so uh you can guess that I didn't do very well. :/
Click was so sad! But the beginning was funny! I think the guy's daughter is really really pretty when she grows up! And no the moisture on my shirt wasnt tears, it was uhhh DROOL! Yes that's it! DROOL! Ohmygosh I feel so cheated of my feelings like the ending was sweet, but dumb! It's like I uhhm drooled for nothing. But I think Adam Sandler's a really good actor.
The people behind us were so annoying. Like when the people were having sex they'd scream EW SICKKKK! Or laugh really really loudly.
Sam (: - 8/31/2006 06:13:00 PM
Monday, August 28, 2006
BBALL SEMIFINALS
EE okay Fiona and Guiqi if you see this, I am really sorry! Its just that I thought it was the Bbal FINALS --> no more school events to support for the year --> cca points gone --> Bad.
[to my defense, i asked stacey and she said it was the last event to support for the year, so .. ohwells. ]
Sixuan was CRAZY. seriously, i have never seen such an enthusiastic supporter. She was cheering like crazy and she didnt want to leave to accompany me to the toilet. she was like the break lah, wait for the break. :/
FLAG DAY
my first flag day ever. we met many people, like tina chung and chris slatter, who recognised us in our uniform SO HAHA THEY HAD TO DONATE.
some people thought i was from evergreen secondary on account of the shirt i was wearing. :/(orientation tee)
CATHECISM
Eeks. Our last lesson on sexuality. Omg how sad is that I missed 4 weeks of the funnest module/topic! rawr.
I think I really changed the people's perception of RGS girls, because i contributed a lot of weird stuff uhh that wasnt.. very clean, to say the least. and they were like o.O
heehee.
confirmation, sigh. i really really dont think i will be spiritually ready yet next year. My faith isn't strong enough! I wish i could just be like Mish, she places her fate in God's hands so doubtlessly and ..faithfully? But my Cathecism teacher said that when you're 14, most people aren't mature enough and that Confirmation is the beginning, not the end.
Its hard not to see Confirmation as the end, especially when Cathecism stops after that. I highly doubt that I will be active in the Catholic community, sigh. But I think being in the Ministry would help me to grow a lot, like spiritually and in maturity, if there is such a word.
Eee but the bad thing is, if I want to volunteer in the Ministry, I'd want to volunteer with Risen Christ church, but the problem is, its not my parish church, so my mom is against it. But I already am starting to develop friends there! Bahh.
SCHOOL
Ooh this morning I met Sneha! Again! I love meeting her in the morning, it really brightens up my day to laugh when you're all sleepy and sluggish (:. Hope I meet her there again tomorrow.
(And I didn't meet Minsi, which is always a plus.)
Eew today during History it was all fine until THE CHEW started poking the marker in his nose. I counldnt control my mouth and I was like EWEWEWEWEWWEWEW really really loudly and I was like staring at his marker, so the whole class turned to stare and he turned really really red and tried to like cover his nose and stuff.
OMG I feel super bad now. I just maluated him in front of the whole class.
Mrs Yap was nice today (: I like Mrs Yap.
COOKIES
Gahh should I give 5 cookies to Quan as a late birthday present, 5 to Peiying as a birthday present, and 5 to Geet as a late farewell-cum-celebrate-end-of-EOYs-present?
Or 6 to Quan, 6 to Peiying and 3 to Geet?
Okay looking at it I shouldn't give Geet anything, but well agh I promised her something during Farewell because I didn't give her her condom so :). All this is because of Famous Amos' policy of only selling 100 grams, because it bankrupted me. So to get my money's worth, I am reduced to this sad, sad method.
Grah. I need an increase in my pocket money, dammit. 17 dollars a week is barely enough to drink Milo on, much less EAT.
I looked so loser today! With my frizzy ('parakeet') hair and high high belt, schoolbag, and socks and walking through Orchard by myself looking lost. :( Rawr. Bah but I have to walk alone sometimes, I guess. But Tongmin saw me and she was like looking at me pitiyingly :(. So when I saw a RGS girl's pinafore at the Famous Amos counter I thought it was Tong Min and I was trying to hide. THEN IT WAS VIC! (:
To whoever comes here, no I am not abandoning my blog. I am a sentimental old fool. Bahh who am I kidding anyway who wants to read about my long-winded recount of my boring life.
CAT IF YOU SEE THIS I WANT MY LETTER ON WEDSNESDAY! rawr. (:
EE okay Fiona and Guiqi if you see this, I am really sorry! Its just that I thought it was the Bbal FINALS --> no more school events to support for the year --> cca points gone --> Bad.
[to my defense, i asked stacey and she said it was the last event to support for the year, so .. ohwells. ]
Sixuan was CRAZY. seriously, i have never seen such an enthusiastic supporter. She was cheering like crazy and she didnt want to leave to accompany me to the toilet. she was like the break lah, wait for the break. :/
FLAG DAY
my first flag day ever. we met many people, like tina chung and chris slatter, who recognised us in our uniform SO HAHA THEY HAD TO DONATE.
some people thought i was from evergreen secondary on account of the shirt i was wearing. :/(orientation tee)
CATHECISM
Eeks. Our last lesson on sexuality. Omg how sad is that I missed 4 weeks of the funnest module/topic! rawr.
I think I really changed the people's perception of RGS girls, because i contributed a lot of weird stuff uhh that wasnt.. very clean, to say the least. and they were like o.O
heehee.
confirmation, sigh. i really really dont think i will be spiritually ready yet next year. My faith isn't strong enough! I wish i could just be like Mish, she places her fate in God's hands so doubtlessly and ..faithfully? But my Cathecism teacher said that when you're 14, most people aren't mature enough and that Confirmation is the beginning, not the end.
Its hard not to see Confirmation as the end, especially when Cathecism stops after that. I highly doubt that I will be active in the Catholic community, sigh. But I think being in the Ministry would help me to grow a lot, like spiritually and in maturity, if there is such a word.
Eee but the bad thing is, if I want to volunteer in the Ministry, I'd want to volunteer with Risen Christ church, but the problem is, its not my parish church, so my mom is against it. But I already am starting to develop friends there! Bahh.
SCHOOL
Ooh this morning I met Sneha! Again! I love meeting her in the morning, it really brightens up my day to laugh when you're all sleepy and sluggish (:. Hope I meet her there again tomorrow.
(And I didn't meet Minsi, which is always a plus.)
Eew today during History it was all fine until THE CHEW started poking the marker in his nose. I counldnt control my mouth and I was like EWEWEWEWEWWEWEW really really loudly and I was like staring at his marker, so the whole class turned to stare and he turned really really red and tried to like cover his nose and stuff.
OMG I feel super bad now. I just maluated him in front of the whole class.
Mrs Yap was nice today (: I like Mrs Yap.
COOKIES
Gahh should I give 5 cookies to Quan as a late birthday present, 5 to Peiying as a birthday present, and 5 to Geet as a late farewell-cum-celebrate-end-of-EOYs-present?
Or 6 to Quan, 6 to Peiying and 3 to Geet?
Okay looking at it I shouldn't give Geet anything, but well agh I promised her something during Farewell because I didn't give her her condom so :). All this is because of Famous Amos' policy of only selling 100 grams, because it bankrupted me. So to get my money's worth, I am reduced to this sad, sad method.
Grah. I need an increase in my pocket money, dammit. 17 dollars a week is barely enough to drink Milo on, much less EAT.
I looked so loser today! With my frizzy ('parakeet') hair and high high belt, schoolbag, and socks and walking through Orchard by myself looking lost. :( Rawr. Bah but I have to walk alone sometimes, I guess. But Tongmin saw me and she was like looking at me pitiyingly :(. So when I saw a RGS girl's pinafore at the Famous Amos counter I thought it was Tong Min and I was trying to hide. THEN IT WAS VIC! (:
To whoever comes here, no I am not abandoning my blog. I am a sentimental old fool. Bahh who am I kidding anyway who wants to read about my long-winded recount of my boring life.
CAT IF YOU SEE THIS I WANT MY LETTER ON WEDSNESDAY! rawr. (:
Sam (: - 8/28/2006 05:09:00 PM
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
really, sometimes i wish choir wasnt such a big part of my life.
i think i have a problem. why cant i be a normal person! urghurghurgh. i wish i didnt talk to people that much. then people wouldnt think i m weird. URGHURGH URGH.
EW why cant i be a normal person! urghurhgurgh. OMG I SPENT LIKE 12 BUCKS TODAY I FEEL SICK. i tell you, going out with vic and eliza makes me splurge. peer pressure i tell you. i shall never go out with them again. they always suggest places that cost like 15+ bucks plus to eat. totally out of my budget! :/
ahhaha this friday i shall go out with.... mish! okay maybe not, but i want to go out with like fiona or guiqi. OH YES. GUIQI. i havent talked to her for really long.
i think i am quite freaky. i actually write down a list of people i want to get closer to and write down steps to get closer to them. currently on my list is fiona, guiqi etc. (those mentioned in the post earlier). i am so pissed! there is no choir for like really long until prague practices when it will be like really intense like SYF practices thus there will be no time for us to learn Salmo 150! and that nice song Fiona was singing and Suet promised to teach! rawr.
eeee i totally screwed up Chinese this morning. like omg i only used one chinese literary device for BOTH QUESTIONS I AM SO DEAD. and my comparisons are completely screwed. like they showed a view of underwater world the many fishes swimming about. and i said that the fishes were like noodles in soup because there were probably as many of them as the noodles in soup. crude translation, but whatever. and then the second picture was of a sun rising/setting and but only the sky around the sun was orange and the other part of the sky was black.
so i said that it was like an orange on a black tablecloth, its juice staining the cloth slowly. and it is white, so it is like the eyes of heaven/the sky going blind because it is white. OH SHIT THE TEACHERS ARE SO GOING TO BE LIKE huh what is she talking about or give me like 2 upon 12.
my life is so over.
OMGWTH I AM SO PISSED MY MOM JUST WALKED PAST AND SHE LOOKED AT THE SCREEN AND QUOTED 'my life is so over' and snorted. eeg. i feel sweaty after seeing what i wrote WHY CANT I WRITE ELOQUENTLY AND NICELY LIKE MISH. her letters (in sec 1 anyway) are so focused (not digressive, anyway) and coherent! my letters to Cantankerous Adorable Thingum are so .. random. eeks.
omg SHIT. ugh ugh ugh. i realised that i act very impulsively, ('without inhibition') and then afterwards i regret it a lot and i worry which is bad. urgh really, why cant i be normal! like a normal quiet girl. like uhhhh.... shzehui. or mish. not that quiet, but not loud, and would never be considered weird or anything other than nice.
eeks.
i think i have a problem. why cant i be a normal person! urghurghurgh. i wish i didnt talk to people that much. then people wouldnt think i m weird. URGHURGH URGH.
EW why cant i be a normal person! urghurhgurgh. OMG I SPENT LIKE 12 BUCKS TODAY I FEEL SICK. i tell you, going out with vic and eliza makes me splurge. peer pressure i tell you. i shall never go out with them again. they always suggest places that cost like 15+ bucks plus to eat. totally out of my budget! :/
ahhaha this friday i shall go out with.... mish! okay maybe not, but i want to go out with like fiona or guiqi. OH YES. GUIQI. i havent talked to her for really long.
i think i am quite freaky. i actually write down a list of people i want to get closer to and write down steps to get closer to them. currently on my list is fiona, guiqi etc. (those mentioned in the post earlier). i am so pissed! there is no choir for like really long until prague practices when it will be like really intense like SYF practices thus there will be no time for us to learn Salmo 150! and that nice song Fiona was singing and Suet promised to teach! rawr.
eeee i totally screwed up Chinese this morning. like omg i only used one chinese literary device for BOTH QUESTIONS I AM SO DEAD. and my comparisons are completely screwed. like they showed a view of underwater world the many fishes swimming about. and i said that the fishes were like noodles in soup because there were probably as many of them as the noodles in soup. crude translation, but whatever. and then the second picture was of a sun rising/setting and but only the sky around the sun was orange and the other part of the sky was black.
so i said that it was like an orange on a black tablecloth, its juice staining the cloth slowly. and it is white, so it is like the eyes of heaven/the sky going blind because it is white. OH SHIT THE TEACHERS ARE SO GOING TO BE LIKE huh what is she talking about or give me like 2 upon 12.
my life is so over.
OMGWTH I AM SO PISSED MY MOM JUST WALKED PAST AND SHE LOOKED AT THE SCREEN AND QUOTED 'my life is so over' and snorted. eeg. i feel sweaty after seeing what i wrote WHY CANT I WRITE ELOQUENTLY AND NICELY LIKE MISH. her letters (in sec 1 anyway) are so focused (not digressive, anyway) and coherent! my letters to Cantankerous Adorable Thingum are so .. random. eeks.
omg SHIT. ugh ugh ugh. i realised that i act very impulsively, ('without inhibition') and then afterwards i regret it a lot and i worry which is bad. urgh really, why cant i be normal! like a normal quiet girl. like uhhhh.... shzehui. or mish. not that quiet, but not loud, and would never be considered weird or anything other than nice.
eeks.
Sam (: - 8/22/2006 08:15:00 PM
Monday, August 21, 2006
OHMYGOSH NO CHOIR UNTIL LIKE WEEK 8? but why! that's like 11 weeks! i mean, there are no exams for the sec 1-3s before term 4 starts what. i want choir i want choir i want choir! OMG I HAVE NO PURPOSE IN GOING TO SCHOOL ANYMORE i think i come to school solely for choir!
urgh i want to learn laudate properly. and mbiri! omg i LOVE MBIRI. and suet promised to teach salmo 150! and that song that fiona was singing and it sounded quite nice.
omg i love geet i love geet! yay we shall plan the barbeque together and i bet more people will go now because she is a senior and she will persuade the sec 4 batch to go and i will persuade the sec 2 batch! OMG I LOVE GEET haha.
(GEET I BET YOU TOTALLY CRUSH ME LAH.)
urgh i want to learn laudate properly. and mbiri! omg i LOVE MBIRI. and suet promised to teach salmo 150! and that song that fiona was singing and it sounded quite nice.
omg i love geet i love geet! yay we shall plan the barbeque together and i bet more people will go now because she is a senior and she will persuade the sec 4 batch to go and i will persuade the sec 2 batch! OMG I LOVE GEET haha.
(GEET I BET YOU TOTALLY CRUSH ME LAH.)
Sam (: - 8/21/2006 10:55:00 PM
Saturday, August 19, 2006
okay this is very very random but OH WHY WHY! why are people singing the school song/national anthem one octave lower! i mean, okay transpose it. but sometimes they transpose it WRONGLY! why! why! why!
Speech day
today speech day was rather stupid because we were supposed to come at 7:30 to warmup and we did nothing until 8:40. the horrors! i was supposed to copy history notes, finish reading two books and possibly mug history. i really do overplan myself. but anyway.
oh mish looked so so weird today. i was like is that mish? and today was highly scary i almost wasnt able to pass the camera to mish to record. (ZAN MY LIFESAVER!). oh yay i love mish she videod it from a mush nicer angle and she did some artsy things with it like panning in and out. and this time CAT SOLO with the accompaniment could be heard! (:
ahh i feel quite sad i have drifted apart from sneha. i havent really talked to her since i shifted sections. but today during lunch sneha was so sweet and funny (: <33. but then she left at one and left me to talk to thashi. which i actually dont know and we got into an animated conversation about wanjoo and zan's crushes. (i just realised it is mildly scary how i talk to people i dont even know o.O)
this year i think i have drifted apart from guiqi fiona and michele and sneha and mavis. and suet. ): but today';s speech day i think i got a bit closer to a lot of them, so yay! (: but i got closer to mish chanel cat geet jac this year. (: is happy. i still want to get to know boey better, and peiying better. and quanquan. i really want to go out one-to-one with her, because i can tell that she's a nice person and i kinda regret not really getting as close to her these one and a half years as i liked. okay my personal goals in choir will be to get close to these people again and get closer to SHIAO i do not want to regret again ahh.
oh cat's mom is very haha cute. cat was like totally pushing her in front of boey and me and "mumbling" to her mom that we were her juniors. i am amused. eeeeeee i was hanging around after speech day because i didnt want to go home and mug history (OMG HOW GROSS).
i think xiumin still hates me. from last year when i was sort of obsessing over her, oh crap i think cat will be like that towards me next year when she comes back to visit. oh crap i really really must step up the drastic plan. oh i know. DO NOT INTERACT WITH CAT FOR ONE MONTH. starting from.. 20th Augush. OH WAIT NO! then i cannot remind her to buy my birthday present.
oh uhm uhm hinthint MY BIRTHDAY IS ON 28th of SEPTEMBER. yes i am very subtle thank you!
our rs is screwed BEYOND BELIEF. i think ms chun is exceptionally nice to our group actually, because she doesnt want people to say that she hates me cause she's teacher in charge of our CCA. but urgh i really think that cassandra should stop promising stuff that is really impossible to deliver and SHE DIDNT EVEN ASK FOR. like a draft of the report? she didnt even ask for that! she only wanted new drafts of our lit review and methodology. ugh okay i am really pissed at myself. i cant believe i forgot about the meeting and studied geog.
i think the amos guy in my cathecism class is really sweet and gentlemanly. okay random, but i feel i have to say this because ugh the guys i know are being MAJOR JERKS.
i hate myself. i think too much about things that are already over and dealt with and closed. (mish you know what i m talking about). its true. i really need attention, because i think that's the only way i can reaffirm that people actually like me. i put up a facade in front of other people, and act extroverted and confident, but its just to cover up the fact that i m really really insecure.): sometimes i feel like i m really selfish, because i need people to say they love me to actually believe it.
i think it stems from the fact that my dad used to say that i would never make friends because i m mean and petty, so now i cant believe that people would actually be so nice to me and be friends with me. such wonderful people would actually pick ME to be their friends. i think i am so blessed. thank you lord, for giving me such supportive friends. who put up with my stupidness my blurness and all. i really, really love you. i dont think you all will ever know how much you mean to me, especially my batchmates. (: i love you guys.
thank God i found you.
Speech day
today speech day was rather stupid because we were supposed to come at 7:30 to warmup and we did nothing until 8:40. the horrors! i was supposed to copy history notes, finish reading two books and possibly mug history. i really do overplan myself. but anyway.
oh mish looked so so weird today. i was like is that mish? and today was highly scary i almost wasnt able to pass the camera to mish to record. (ZAN MY LIFESAVER!). oh yay i love mish she videod it from a mush nicer angle and she did some artsy things with it like panning in and out. and this time CAT SOLO with the accompaniment could be heard! (:
ahh i feel quite sad i have drifted apart from sneha. i havent really talked to her since i shifted sections. but today during lunch sneha was so sweet and funny (: <33. but then she left at one and left me to talk to thashi. which i actually dont know and we got into an animated conversation about wanjoo and zan's crushes. (i just realised it is mildly scary how i talk to people i dont even know o.O)
this year i think i have drifted apart from guiqi fiona and michele and sneha and mavis. and suet. ): but today';s speech day i think i got a bit closer to a lot of them, so yay! (: but i got closer to mish chanel cat geet jac this year. (: is happy. i still want to get to know boey better, and peiying better. and quanquan. i really want to go out one-to-one with her, because i can tell that she's a nice person and i kinda regret not really getting as close to her these one and a half years as i liked. okay my personal goals in choir will be to get close to these people again and get closer to SHIAO i do not want to regret again ahh.
oh cat's mom is very haha cute. cat was like totally pushing her in front of boey and me and "mumbling" to her mom that we were her juniors. i am amused. eeeeeee i was hanging around after speech day because i didnt want to go home and mug history (OMG HOW GROSS).
i think xiumin still hates me. from last year when i was sort of obsessing over her, oh crap i think cat will be like that towards me next year when she comes back to visit. oh crap i really really must step up the drastic plan. oh i know. DO NOT INTERACT WITH CAT FOR ONE MONTH. starting from.. 20th Augush. OH WAIT NO! then i cannot remind her to buy my birthday present.
oh uhm uhm hinthint MY BIRTHDAY IS ON 28th of SEPTEMBER. yes i am very subtle thank you!
our rs is screwed BEYOND BELIEF. i think ms chun is exceptionally nice to our group actually, because she doesnt want people to say that she hates me cause she's teacher in charge of our CCA. but urgh i really think that cassandra should stop promising stuff that is really impossible to deliver and SHE DIDNT EVEN ASK FOR. like a draft of the report? she didnt even ask for that! she only wanted new drafts of our lit review and methodology. ugh okay i am really pissed at myself. i cant believe i forgot about the meeting and studied geog.
i think the amos guy in my cathecism class is really sweet and gentlemanly. okay random, but i feel i have to say this because ugh the guys i know are being MAJOR JERKS.
i hate myself. i think too much about things that are already over and dealt with and closed. (mish you know what i m talking about). its true. i really need attention, because i think that's the only way i can reaffirm that people actually like me. i put up a facade in front of other people, and act extroverted and confident, but its just to cover up the fact that i m really really insecure.): sometimes i feel like i m really selfish, because i need people to say they love me to actually believe it.
i think it stems from the fact that my dad used to say that i would never make friends because i m mean and petty, so now i cant believe that people would actually be so nice to me and be friends with me. such wonderful people would actually pick ME to be their friends. i think i am so blessed. thank you lord, for giving me such supportive friends. who put up with my stupidness my blurness and all. i really, really love you. i dont think you all will ever know how much you mean to me, especially my batchmates. (: i love you guys.
thank God i found you.
Sam (: - 8/19/2006 06:49:00 PM
Friday, August 18, 2006
there are many overdue things i have to talk about because they mean a lot:
Choralfest outing on 8th August
It was just quite honestly a very perfect day. National day celebrations --> laughed at Eliza, saw her grooving and videotaped it so i could blackmail her with it!
Speech day rehearsals--> Recording of Incog video which honestly wasnt their best performance. ZOMG THE ULTIMATE SIN: THE FIRST PART OF CAT'S SOLO COULDNT BE HEAR. outrageous i say. suet's voice makes me envious even though it sounds kinda nasal and stuff because her voice is all trembly and quavering and it sounds like she's going to cry/crying and it makes me emo! ahh.
Oh my gosh it was a humunganoid ego boost. Eliza and I were walking to LJS in cineleisure and they saw us and started screaming SAM! SAM! SAM! and yibei suddenly started running towards me. AHHH i miss yichan and shaq and yibei! and sihui! and shusze(okay i didnt really know her, only that she thought i was cute and uhh was yibei's friend). yibei left so early! we went to the arcade which was quite weird because we were in school uniform(eliza and i) and i had to wear eliza's brother's jacket which was very uhm.. manly smelling. and big omg it almost covered my pinafore and made it look like i was wearing a dress.
ugh and we walked to takashimaya and hung around in the food hall which is always a big mistake because i almost always give in to temptation and buy gelato which is bad because i waste money. and according to jiali it has like a huge amount of this fat that they dont have to announce i think its trans fat ahh!
Chinese pt
Highly maluating. Jiali's lameness astounds me. when the proverb ren2 shan1 ren2 hai3 came up we stuck pictures of paper on our arms and uhh moved like waves. and other extremely LAME and CHEESY actions which i cannot remember now and were very very very anxiety-inducing to do because cat's cheongsam's slit was so so high. when i sat down i totally flashed. so i was scared i would flash the class during the presentation. i hope i didnt. i looked like a potato sack with extremely hairy and fat legs. the cheongsam was SO TIGHT at the neck that the button kept on undoing itself. but it was so loose! eeeeeeee. and then the chinese teacher insisted on taking photos with us o.O but she forgot about Q&A HAHA I AM HAPPY. ingenious me thought of the costume idea.
Math and Geog tests
Math gave me a sense of God's greatness today, because i had only like 5 minutes left and i didnt know how to find the length of something, so i prayed for the Lord to let me see the figure and somehow know how to do it. and when i opened my eyes, i knew HOW TO DO IT. okay its sounds really little and stuff, but i havent really experienced a miracle like this before so i am still in awe. i have to learn to turn the Lord for help and not let pride put me down argh.
OH GEOG WAS SCREWED GEOG DIE GEOG. eee i screwed it up gross.
My getting over Cat
As of tuesday 15th of August, i am officially over cat(unofficially is another matter but heehee). MUST DIRECT ATTENTION TO QUANQUAN. hope the obsession gets transferred to her or something.
Mish and today and Batchmates in general
i love mish! ahhh talking to her today after choir was very relaxing and exciting. and fun! ahh she looked so squishy and haha cute. i havent talked like that for really really long. I LOVE YOU MISH! and today i saw a side of varsha i have honestly never seen before. maybe i just bring out the weirdest side of people haha.
today's choir practice was so dead. and they were praising us on our 'discipline'. its just that the atmosphere was so so dead that we couldnt even be bothered to get up. everyone was so sluggish and lethargic, and it really really showed in the music. UGH.
haha suet's head is seriously mutated on the cca board.
My weight and disgusting body structure
eww i really really need to cut down on my fat intake. i seriously dont know what is happening i eat about the same stuff i ate in P6 and my stomach is just getting bigger and flabbier by the day! AHH MY METABOLIC RATE. but i hate exercise. honestly. running and samantha are complete opposites. they should name the two poles of magnets after us or something. exercise and samantha repel.
speech day tomorrow must bring camera.
Choralfest outing on 8th August
It was just quite honestly a very perfect day. National day celebrations --> laughed at Eliza, saw her grooving and videotaped it so i could blackmail her with it!
Speech day rehearsals--> Recording of Incog video which honestly wasnt their best performance. ZOMG THE ULTIMATE SIN: THE FIRST PART OF CAT'S SOLO COULDNT BE HEAR. outrageous i say. suet's voice makes me envious even though it sounds kinda nasal and stuff because her voice is all trembly and quavering and it sounds like she's going to cry/crying and it makes me emo! ahh.
Oh my gosh it was a humunganoid ego boost. Eliza and I were walking to LJS in cineleisure and they saw us and started screaming SAM! SAM! SAM! and yibei suddenly started running towards me. AHHH i miss yichan and shaq and yibei! and sihui! and shusze(okay i didnt really know her, only that she thought i was cute and uhh was yibei's friend). yibei left so early! we went to the arcade which was quite weird because we were in school uniform(eliza and i) and i had to wear eliza's brother's jacket which was very uhm.. manly smelling. and big omg it almost covered my pinafore and made it look like i was wearing a dress.
ugh and we walked to takashimaya and hung around in the food hall which is always a big mistake because i almost always give in to temptation and buy gelato which is bad because i waste money. and according to jiali it has like a huge amount of this fat that they dont have to announce i think its trans fat ahh!
Chinese pt
Highly maluating. Jiali's lameness astounds me. when the proverb ren2 shan1 ren2 hai3 came up we stuck pictures of paper on our arms and uhh moved like waves. and other extremely LAME and CHEESY actions which i cannot remember now and were very very very anxiety-inducing to do because cat's cheongsam's slit was so so high. when i sat down i totally flashed. so i was scared i would flash the class during the presentation. i hope i didnt. i looked like a potato sack with extremely hairy and fat legs. the cheongsam was SO TIGHT at the neck that the button kept on undoing itself. but it was so loose! eeeeeeee. and then the chinese teacher insisted on taking photos with us o.O but she forgot about Q&A HAHA I AM HAPPY. ingenious me thought of the costume idea.
Math and Geog tests
Math gave me a sense of God's greatness today, because i had only like 5 minutes left and i didnt know how to find the length of something, so i prayed for the Lord to let me see the figure and somehow know how to do it. and when i opened my eyes, i knew HOW TO DO IT. okay its sounds really little and stuff, but i havent really experienced a miracle like this before so i am still in awe. i have to learn to turn the Lord for help and not let pride put me down argh.
OH GEOG WAS SCREWED GEOG DIE GEOG. eee i screwed it up gross.
My getting over Cat
As of tuesday 15th of August, i am officially over cat(unofficially is another matter but heehee). MUST DIRECT ATTENTION TO QUANQUAN. hope the obsession gets transferred to her or something.
Mish and today and Batchmates in general
i love mish! ahhh talking to her today after choir was very relaxing and exciting. and fun! ahh she looked so squishy and haha cute. i havent talked like that for really really long. I LOVE YOU MISH! and today i saw a side of varsha i have honestly never seen before. maybe i just bring out the weirdest side of people haha.
today's choir practice was so dead. and they were praising us on our 'discipline'. its just that the atmosphere was so so dead that we couldnt even be bothered to get up. everyone was so sluggish and lethargic, and it really really showed in the music. UGH.
haha suet's head is seriously mutated on the cca board.
My weight and disgusting body structure
eww i really really need to cut down on my fat intake. i seriously dont know what is happening i eat about the same stuff i ate in P6 and my stomach is just getting bigger and flabbier by the day! AHH MY METABOLIC RATE. but i hate exercise. honestly. running and samantha are complete opposites. they should name the two poles of magnets after us or something. exercise and samantha repel.
speech day tomorrow must bring camera.
Sam (: - 8/18/2006 08:49:00 PM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
ee okay trying out Arial. today was choir practice after so long! like the last choir practice i went for was last last thursday. :/
ohmygosh our rs is so behind schedule and we keep lying to ms chun! ahhhh i really meant to give her the portfolio on tuesday but ahhh shiying didnt bring her notes. and oh man we supposedly promised her a draft of the rs report WHICH IS STILL NOT STARTED, and another lit review draft (OUR 4TH). and oh have i mentioned our portfolio
i think i have this fear of people knowing me too well, emotionally/mentally or whatever you call it. its very scary because i am a highly confused individual, and when people know you so well, its highly unsettling, and hmm sometimes frightening. eeee okay emo post over. AHHH today laudate pueri was kinda screwed because many many people were not there on friday.
ohmygosh our rs is so behind schedule and we keep lying to ms chun! ahhhh i really meant to give her the portfolio on tuesday but ahhh shiying didnt bring her notes. and oh man we supposedly promised her a draft of the rs report WHICH IS STILL NOT STARTED, and another lit review draft (OUR 4TH). and oh have i mentioned our portfolio
i think i have this fear of people knowing me too well, emotionally/mentally or whatever you call it. its very scary because i am a highly confused individual, and when people know you so well, its highly unsettling, and hmm sometimes frightening. eeee okay emo post over. AHHH today laudate pueri was kinda screwed because many many people were not there on friday.
Sam (: - 8/15/2006 09:17:00 PM
Friday, August 11, 2006
uhm a very cosy picture. of quan in suet's lap. right.
i should really crop this one.
QUAN LOOKS SO CUTE. ahha whoops you'll have to tilt your head i forgot to rotate it. THWEE!
cat! okay not a good photo of her but its the most.. presentable one. without me.thwee. OKAY her body looks quite disproportionate from this angle. whoops. her head looks undersized.
ZOMG QUAN LOOKS SO CUTE! thwee shall update other farewell photos when my dad allows me to, sadly. i shall now go pray for my period to arrive.
PRAY FOR ME! THWEE!
Sam (: - 8/11/2006 11:13:00 PM
i am quite worried. why is my menstrual cycle so out of order!
thwee. chinses pt meeting today was quite fun. shall blog about it later.
thwee. chinses pt meeting today was quite fun. shall blog about it later.
Sam (: - 8/11/2006 06:46:00 PM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
i am, i have realised, a very very extreme person. (of course, that might be the hormones.)
i have not gotten my period since the 21st of June. can someone please calulate that for me and tell me how long that is?all i know is that its pretty long, since i usually have 20-day menstrual cycles. creepy.
and well, i just want to say. THANK YOU CAT FOR the 4-hour and 43 page+ convo. i love you.
i have not gotten my period since the 21st of June. can someone please calulate that for me and tell me how long that is?all i know is that its pretty long, since i usually have 20-day menstrual cycles. creepy.
and well, i just want to say. THANK YOU CAT FOR the 4-hour and 43 page+ convo. i love you.
Sam (: - 8/10/2006 10:42:00 PM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
i really really really dont know what to say. its really soothing to talk to suet, with her calming voice in your ear while you are somewhat freaking out over why your files refuse to zip and ZOMG DISAPPEAR.
but i digress.
i feel really really stupid, because what she said about our batch really made me see things that i think i noticed, but i blocked out. because i couldnt take it, and i didnt want to realise it. i realised that attitidude and passion ISNT everything, and just because you are all committed to it doesnt make you a good batch. you need talent. i really really thought that we could make this year's concert busking. we put in SO MUCH, and it was so tiring. we gave so much, but we have nothing. i feel so stupid because actually at the end it was only eliza and i who wanted concert busking. i really really thought we could do it. and i now i know why we couldnt.
rawr i feel really confused now because what i am saying now doesnt make much sense. if i had an lj, i would make this a cut, so people do not read if you do not want to be more freaked out at sam's weirdness and incapability to sort things out clearly. sometimes, i think suet knows me muchmuch better than i know myself. and that is so scary because that is NOT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN!
the cat obsession began to take roots at the beginning of the year? WHOA THAT IS SCARY. and it might be deeper than i thought. i thought it only officially started after AMC with mish.
gah. gah. gah. i really really really. dont know what to say.
as for choir and how its changed; well i dont know its not a THING you can describe, like oh choir has now sprouted two more growths or something. its a feeling, and feelings are hard to describe.
but is it just me, or doesnt the choir seem more dead? its so.. different. RAWR! its scary. i dont know. but choir just doesnt seem safe anymore, like choir is being less and less the haven i retreat into 3 times a week. somehow i get the feeling something big is going to happen, and the feeling aint good.
and she told me that cat is only human and she makes mistakes. hmm i thought she was hinting at something else, so WHEW.
i really really miss talking to suet though. its just really nice to talk relaxedly with someone, going off tangent all the time for one and half hours. (: i love you suet.
ZOMG but after that i dreamt it was farewell, except in the co room. and cat started crying, and mish asked me to take a photo, and i said no thats just mean AND SHE STARTED CRYING and i started crying and then when i walked out of the co room after farewell everyone came up to me and BURNED ME. it was so freaky!
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zomg yesterday after speech day rehearsal, i started obsessing about cat again, and guiqi said," sam, do you pray to cat every night?"
we must have looked so stupid listening to a CAMERA. but the recording sounds surprisingly good at home. and no the video is not up yet. BLAME YOUTUBE. now only i can enjoy cat's cuteness. I RUB. I RUB.
but i digress.
i feel really really stupid, because what she said about our batch really made me see things that i think i noticed, but i blocked out. because i couldnt take it, and i didnt want to realise it. i realised that attitidude and passion ISNT everything, and just because you are all committed to it doesnt make you a good batch. you need talent. i really really thought that we could make this year's concert busking. we put in SO MUCH, and it was so tiring. we gave so much, but we have nothing. i feel so stupid because actually at the end it was only eliza and i who wanted concert busking. i really really thought we could do it. and i now i know why we couldnt.
rawr i feel really confused now because what i am saying now doesnt make much sense. if i had an lj, i would make this a cut, so people do not read if you do not want to be more freaked out at sam's weirdness and incapability to sort things out clearly. sometimes, i think suet knows me muchmuch better than i know myself. and that is so scary because that is NOT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN!
the cat obsession began to take roots at the beginning of the year? WHOA THAT IS SCARY. and it might be deeper than i thought. i thought it only officially started after AMC with mish.
gah. gah. gah. i really really really. dont know what to say.
as for choir and how its changed; well i dont know its not a THING you can describe, like oh choir has now sprouted two more growths or something. its a feeling, and feelings are hard to describe.
but is it just me, or doesnt the choir seem more dead? its so.. different. RAWR! its scary. i dont know. but choir just doesnt seem safe anymore, like choir is being less and less the haven i retreat into 3 times a week. somehow i get the feeling something big is going to happen, and the feeling aint good.
and she told me that cat is only human and she makes mistakes. hmm i thought she was hinting at something else, so WHEW.
i really really miss talking to suet though. its just really nice to talk relaxedly with someone, going off tangent all the time for one and half hours. (: i love you suet.
ZOMG but after that i dreamt it was farewell, except in the co room. and cat started crying, and mish asked me to take a photo, and i said no thats just mean AND SHE STARTED CRYING and i started crying and then when i walked out of the co room after farewell everyone came up to me and BURNED ME. it was so freaky!
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zomg yesterday after speech day rehearsal, i started obsessing about cat again, and guiqi said," sam, do you pray to cat every night?"
we must have looked so stupid listening to a CAMERA. but the recording sounds surprisingly good at home. and no the video is not up yet. BLAME YOUTUBE. now only i can enjoy cat's cuteness. I RUB. I RUB.
Sam (: - 8/09/2006 04:17:00 PM
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
ZOMG TODAY I SAW MINSI IN THE 190A BUS AGAIN. whywhywhy am i so unlucky! okay MINSI freaks the crap out of me. as in online its still okay because you dont have to look at her scary face. gahgah i hope i dont see her in the bus anymore. its like yesterday we were practically walking beside each other to school and we couldnt even make eye-contact, and i didnt dare to start a conversation with her because of the BAD MEMORIES OF THE SEC 1 CONVO. the atmosphere was so tense! rawr. and also because i hate small talk. the convo would probably go:
ME: so, are you going to prague?
Minsi: No.
i am so maluated. i think minsi thinks i am some sort of mutant in a human body. maybe not even in a human body.
but anyway, WE CAN SEE ELIZA SINGING ONE OF THE ICKLE SONGS FROM HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL. ha. ha. ha. and i am getting a letter from cat later! yay! zomg my whole class looks so pretty. and i am in school uniform. partly because I DONT HAVE DECENT RED TOP except for the UBER-TIGHT RED TOP and the I LOVE SINGAPORE BOXY TEE.
bwahah cant wait for choir 3 outing later. YIBEI! I LOVE YIBEI! AND YIBEI LOVES ME! yay! i think she's really nice. oh i just realised i have posted up choralfest photos. or have i? hmm. WAIT I DID.
i wish i were normal. yesterday i blog searched victoria loke. or vic loke. i cant remember. and this weird post about someone whining about how big ehr boobs were came up and I STARTED THINKING HOW OUTRAGEOUS AND WEIRD THE PERSON IS.
and i looked at the URL and it was my blog. !!! i am weird that way (and sometimes psychotic, but that's another matter.).
ME: so, are you going to prague?
Minsi: No.
i am so maluated. i think minsi thinks i am some sort of mutant in a human body. maybe not even in a human body.
but anyway, WE CAN SEE ELIZA SINGING ONE OF THE ICKLE SONGS FROM HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL. ha. ha. ha. and i am getting a letter from cat later! yay! zomg my whole class looks so pretty. and i am in school uniform. partly because I DONT HAVE DECENT RED TOP except for the UBER-TIGHT RED TOP and the I LOVE SINGAPORE BOXY TEE.
bwahah cant wait for choir 3 outing later. YIBEI! I LOVE YIBEI! AND YIBEI LOVES ME! yay! i think she's really nice. oh i just realised i have posted up choralfest photos. or have i? hmm. WAIT I DID.
i wish i were normal. yesterday i blog searched victoria loke. or vic loke. i cant remember. and this weird post about someone whining about how big ehr boobs were came up and I STARTED THINKING HOW OUTRAGEOUS AND WEIRD THE PERSON IS.
and i looked at the URL and it was my blog. !!! i am weird that way (and sometimes psychotic, but that's another matter.).
Sam (: - 8/08/2006 07:03:00 AM
Monday, August 07, 2006
i feel so stupid and disappointed with myself again. i need self-control, dammit. i need to have the courage to say no, even to friends i really dont want to let down.
i think i have a blogging addiction.
4 letters to go.
i think i have a blogging addiction.
4 letters to go.
Sam (: - 8/07/2006 07:24:00 PM
ZOMG I FEEL SO PISSED I WROTE THIS WHOLE LONG ENTRY ABOUT CHOIR AND 101 AND 209 AND MY SUBJECT COMBI AND I NAVIGATED AWAY FROM THIS PAGE AND NOW IT IS ALL GONE! GONE! GONE! i am pissed.
i am really going to miss 209. its one of the nicest and funnest classes ive been in and i m really going to miss you guys. as in our class has a lot of nice people, and a few MAJOR BITCHES. and those people really really really piss you off. but i shall stick to the many nice people yay.
gah it is damn sad the four of us are going to be split up.
ZOMG TOMORROW WE CAN HEAR CAT AGIAN. i obsess. wait. no obsessing.
i am really going to miss 209. its one of the nicest and funnest classes ive been in and i m really going to miss you guys. as in our class has a lot of nice people, and a few MAJOR BITCHES. and those people really really really piss you off. but i shall stick to the many nice people yay.
gah it is damn sad the four of us are going to be split up.
ZOMG TOMORROW WE CAN HEAR CAT AGIAN. i obsess. wait. no obsessing.
Sam (: - 8/07/2006 04:26:00 PM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
There You'll Be
When I think back on these times, and the dreams we left behind
I'll be glad cause I was blessed to get, to have you in my life
When I look back on these days, I'll look and see your face
You're right there for me
In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the skies
In my heart there'll always be a place for you, for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me, And everywhere I am there you'll be
And everywhere I am there you'll be
Well, you showed me how it feels, to feel the sky within my reach
And I always will remember all, the strength you gave to me
Your love made me make it through, oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me
In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the skies
In my heart there'll always be a place for you, for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me,
And everywhere I am there you'll be
Cause I always saw in you my light, my strength
And I wanna thank you now for all the ways, you were right there for me
You were right there for me, oh, yeah
In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the skies
In my heart there'll always be a place for you, for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me, And everywhere I am there you'll be And everywhere I am there you'll be There you'll be.
When I think back on these times, and the dreams we left behind
I'll be glad cause I was blessed to get, to have you in my life
When I look back on these days, I'll look and see your face
You're right there for me
In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the skies
In my heart there'll always be a place for you, for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me, And everywhere I am there you'll be
And everywhere I am there you'll be
Well, you showed me how it feels, to feel the sky within my reach
And I always will remember all, the strength you gave to me
Your love made me make it through, oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me
In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the skies
In my heart there'll always be a place for you, for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me,
And everywhere I am there you'll be
Cause I always saw in you my light, my strength
And I wanna thank you now for all the ways, you were right there for me
You were right there for me, oh, yeah
In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the skies
In my heart there'll always be a place for you, for all my life
I'll keep a part of you with me, And everywhere I am there you'll be And everywhere I am there you'll be There you'll be.
Sam (: - 8/06/2006 01:58:00 PM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
my plan to change the way people look at me.
PLAN #1:TO NOT BE SO OBSESSIVE OVER CAT, DEBORAH AND JIALI
PLAN #1:TO NOT BE SO OBSESSIVE OVER CAT, DEBORAH AND JIALI
- Cat: Do not talk to cat at all. do not do weird things like squeeze her butt. just give her her farewell letter and leave. do not talk to her. no hugging. ahh remember no hugging. or talking to cat for a week.
- Jiali: Talking is allowed, but do not exclaim about how cute she is/how hard her boobs are/ how nice and adorable she is. Only discuss homework and not sexually provocative stuff.
- Deborah: Saying hi allowed, but no hugging. or else i will squeal crazily at her adorable cuteness. and no talking or else she will make me laugh and i will be more ovsessed again.
PLAN #2: TO NOT BE WEIRD. TO ANYONE.
- This means no freaking out people with weird faces for a week.
- No butt-squeezing.
- No prancing around the class.
- Give very politically correct answers. Especially during history class, so i can change bryden chew's perception of me as the sleepy freak.
- uhhhhh. NO dry-humping.
- be quiet. be quiet. be quiet. be quiet. remember. be quiet and introvert. do not speak loudly.
zomg i hope i can keep to it for a day.
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ZOMG TODAY WHEN INCOG WAS PERFORMING THE CCA TEACHER IN CHARGE GOH WAS GROOVING WHEN they WERE SINGING THE RAMALA SONG (cat's solo!). ahh it was so distracting and painful for my eyes! THEY ARE BLEEDING.
Sam (: - 8/05/2006 09:01:00 PM
today was very depressing. i felt so antisocial. rawrrrr.
who am i kidding anyway. who actually comes here to read about my life? i m just this entertainer to you. I BET IF I DIED NO ONE WOULD even notice, much less miss me.
i wish someone loved me. the idea sounds so appealing. someone who thinks about you almost all the time and misses you. and enjoys your company.
i sound like some loser.
who am i kidding anyway. who actually comes here to read about my life? i m just this entertainer to you. I BET IF I DIED NO ONE WOULD even notice, much less miss me.
i wish someone loved me. the idea sounds so appealing. someone who thinks about you almost all the time and misses you. and enjoys your company.
i sound like some loser.
Sam (: - 8/05/2006 07:41:00 PM
Sam (: - 8/05/2006 07:19:00 PM
BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN IS SO SWEET! but the first half an hour i was like, where is this going? the ending is so sad. so sad!
"the truth is, sometimes i miss you so much i can hardly stand it."
"we never have enough time, never enough."
"you've no idea how bad it gets, and I'm not you. I cant make it all on a couple of high altitude f***s once or twice a years."
ahhh its so sweet when ennis cried! ahahah!
zomg at least i know someone more obsessed with me. KAYLEIGH IS TOTALLY OBSESSED WITH THE C DIV NETBALL CAPTAIN CHARMAINE. zomg she'd go "do you think charmaine is pretty? i think charmaine is pretty" 20 times like every 5 minutes.
GAH then she did it in the canteen. hello can you blame me for screaming ZOMG KAYLEIGH SHUT UP. and it sounded really loud. GAH THEN SNEHA AND CAT TURNED AROUND. I WAS SO HUMILIATED. ):
cat looked so cute on stage! ah ah ah! okay i think she is quite freaked out by this obsessive junior of hers. or maybe she sees it as a huge ego boost. :/
anyway, i got closer to kayleigh today again. i ve been drifting further and further from her since the beginning of this year and that's damn sad.
i miss the sec fours.
"the truth is, sometimes i miss you so much i can hardly stand it."
"we never have enough time, never enough."
"you've no idea how bad it gets, and I'm not you. I cant make it all on a couple of high altitude f***s once or twice a years."
ahhh its so sweet when ennis cried! ahahah!
zomg at least i know someone more obsessed with me. KAYLEIGH IS TOTALLY OBSESSED WITH THE C DIV NETBALL CAPTAIN CHARMAINE. zomg she'd go "do you think charmaine is pretty? i think charmaine is pretty" 20 times like every 5 minutes.
GAH then she did it in the canteen. hello can you blame me for screaming ZOMG KAYLEIGH SHUT UP. and it sounded really loud. GAH THEN SNEHA AND CAT TURNED AROUND. I WAS SO HUMILIATED. ):
cat looked so cute on stage! ah ah ah! okay i think she is quite freaked out by this obsessive junior of hers. or maybe she sees it as a huge ego boost. :/
anyway, i got closer to kayleigh today again. i ve been drifting further and further from her since the beginning of this year and that's damn sad.
i miss the sec fours.
Sam (: - 8/05/2006 06:51:00 PM
Friday, August 04, 2006
I M A-DDIC(K),
I M A-DDIC(K),
I M A-DIC(K)ted to you.
i find that very amusing.
nayhaha. and now the amusing episode during math.
me: miss ha, the nameless worksheet is mine.
her: this isnt your first time you know. and when you write your name, you always some up with some very creative forms of your name like sammigirl and samster the hamster. or you leave it blank and think all blanks belong to you.
ZOMG SHE CALLED ME SAMMYGIRL. I SWEAR I HAVE NEVER WRITTEN THAT ON A WORKSHEET BEFORE.
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zomg. rs. i was so scared! i went there right after assembly and ms chun wasnt there. then i called again half an hour later. and she wasnt there again. i was so scared she'd be really pissed like the other times so i went to the choir room 2 hours later and explained to her. and she was really nice (surprisingly).
inter-house badminton was traumatising. i was called a loser by vic's friends :/.
i think jiali is really nice. and we are getting closer! jiali is the love.
I M A-DDIC(K),
I M A-DIC(K)ted to you.
i find that very amusing.
nayhaha. and now the amusing episode during math.
me: miss ha, the nameless worksheet is mine.
her: this isnt your first time you know. and when you write your name, you always some up with some very creative forms of your name like sammigirl and samster the hamster. or you leave it blank and think all blanks belong to you.
ZOMG SHE CALLED ME SAMMYGIRL. I SWEAR I HAVE NEVER WRITTEN THAT ON A WORKSHEET BEFORE.
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zomg. rs. i was so scared! i went there right after assembly and ms chun wasnt there. then i called again half an hour later. and she wasnt there again. i was so scared she'd be really pissed like the other times so i went to the choir room 2 hours later and explained to her. and she was really nice (surprisingly).
inter-house badminton was traumatising. i was called a loser by vic's friends :/.
i think jiali is really nice. and we are getting closer! jiali is the love.
Sam (: - 8/04/2006 09:59:00 PM
Thursday, August 03, 2006
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
eh CAN YOU STOP ANNOUNCING THAT I BLOCKED YOU
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
i changed my nickname!
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
and wth you totally compare notes with your batch!
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
THAT IS NOT GOOD
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
hahahahaha
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
heehee.
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
YOU SUXORS.
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
cheater.
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
i don;t!
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
hahaha
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
i was like so happy like ooh .
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
then i saw guiqi's note.
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
!!
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
hers was printed!
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
it was pretty!
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
rawr.
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
ahahah
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
but mish was whining about how she got a printed one.
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
ahahahahaaha
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
IT FELT DAMN GOOD TO WAVE IT IN HER FACE.
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
aiyohhhh i love her as much
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
(:
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
i love all of you as much!
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
NO.
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
ahahaha but section mah
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
YOU LOVE ME THE MOST.
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
so must special
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
ahahaha
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
-_-
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
remember that.
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
yes okay i love you the most
YES. HAHA CAT I AM NOT POSTING THE REST FOR A REASON.
eh CAN YOU STOP ANNOUNCING THAT I BLOCKED YOU
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
i changed my nickname!
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
and wth you totally compare notes with your batch!
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
THAT IS NOT GOOD
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
hahahahaha
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
heehee.
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
YOU SUXORS.
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
cheater.
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
i don;t!
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
hahaha
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
i was like so happy like ooh .
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
then i saw guiqi's note.
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
!!
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
hers was printed!
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
it was pretty!
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
rawr.
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
ahahah
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
but mish was whining about how she got a printed one.
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
ahahahahaaha
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
IT FELT DAMN GOOD TO WAVE IT IN HER FACE.
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
aiyohhhh i love her as much
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
(:
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
i love all of you as much!
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
NO.
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
ahahaha but section mah
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
YOU LOVE ME THE MOST.
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
so must special
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
ahahaha
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
-_-
sam; SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT ARE NUCLEOTIDES. says:
remember that.
cat. so say goodbye <3rgschoir/incognito says:
yes okay i love you the most
YES. HAHA CAT I AM NOT POSTING THE REST FOR A REASON.
Sam (: - 8/03/2006 11:19:00 PM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
FAREWELL
yesterday was very sad. because the sec 4s are very bonded. and we are not like that. ):
somehow i dont feel very sad for farewell because i think i will be seeing all of them for prague. but it wont be the same.
agh. i think cat is really really nice. and quanquan is really really really nice. AHH I LOVE QUANQUAN! but i love cat more so there. :) i wubb you squishy suet! and my MOMMY sneha. just because i have an asexual name doesnt me i am asexual! rawr. (:
I HAVE A HANDWRITTEN NOTE FROM CAT! I SHALL WAVE IT IN FRONT OF ALL THE SEC TWOS AND MAKE THEM THINK THAT SHE ONLY WROTE A HANDWRITTEN ONE FOR ME YAY.
heehee. SHE IS SO CHEATER. the 1st part is like personal but the 2nd part is totally copied from whatever she wrote for the rest of the choir.
whatever.
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okay now talking about our class which i havent talked about for a very very long time. I LOVE VIC AND JIALI AND JESSICA.
i love you vic! even though sometimes you seem like you arent listening, you always are. and okay actually that's quite scary. but uhmm <33!
JIALI is so adorable. her eyes are so big. and when she laughs she is so adorable. i just feel like smooshing her. JIALI is so nice. JIAJIALINGTEH! whee. whee. whee. whee. i love jiali. she is so cute. and i think she's like the nicest person i have ever met.
jessica is uhmm haha nice to bully. and i like freaking her out. heehee. (: <33
our clique is very small. zomg this sucks. geet & minsi said that their friends think that i am weird. ):
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cooking today was fun. vimilyn was very amusing because she freaked out a lot (like when the sink was clogged, or when the meat which was supposed to be cut like hog dog buns almost got split in two, and when the sliced apple dropped on the floor and i suggested washing it with detergent.. well you get the idea).
"Well, I wish I could partner Sam. I can look past her freak-Jessica-out faces, her incapability at most things kitchen-related and her warped ideas of stuffing mashed potatoes and chicken into the same plastic bag."
vic.
today was very fun when we thought we could partner each other. then stupid chinese menopausal woman had to make her change back. ahh but at least i had vim.
i am very dangerous with a fruit knife. i sliced vim twice. once because i was walking with it and accidently grazed her arm, and twice because i was going to chop the apple.
it must have been very amusing to see us cutting the green apple for the apple crumble. we practically took turns to jump up. i would cut her and she would jump up and i would cut my self and i would jump.
today's cooking was.. stressful, but i think i work better in stressful conditions. (:
i love jiali. and vic. and jessica.
and cat. but i think she blocked me. ): rawr.
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oh today was so scary i thought they called a morning assembly because they found my condom! especially the part when mrs Prama came to address us she was like
"Girls, you must learn to be responsible. in school, in work in every part of your life. [blahblahblah] some of my staff members have told me that they have found.. "
I WAS SO SCARED HERE I ALMOST SCREAMED. but i hope cat likes her condom. (:
crap. 6 letters, and 2 more bags to go.
yesterday was very sad. because the sec 4s are very bonded. and we are not like that. ):
somehow i dont feel very sad for farewell because i think i will be seeing all of them for prague. but it wont be the same.
agh. i think cat is really really nice. and quanquan is really really really nice. AHH I LOVE QUANQUAN! but i love cat more so there. :) i wubb you squishy suet! and my MOMMY sneha. just because i have an asexual name doesnt me i am asexual! rawr. (:
I HAVE A HANDWRITTEN NOTE FROM CAT! I SHALL WAVE IT IN FRONT OF ALL THE SEC TWOS AND MAKE THEM THINK THAT SHE ONLY WROTE A HANDWRITTEN ONE FOR ME YAY.
heehee. SHE IS SO CHEATER. the 1st part is like personal but the 2nd part is totally copied from whatever she wrote for the rest of the choir.
whatever.
-------------------------------
okay now talking about our class which i havent talked about for a very very long time. I LOVE VIC AND JIALI AND JESSICA.
i love you vic! even though sometimes you seem like you arent listening, you always are. and okay actually that's quite scary. but uhmm <33!
JIALI is so adorable. her eyes are so big. and when she laughs she is so adorable. i just feel like smooshing her. JIALI is so nice. JIAJIALINGTEH! whee. whee. whee. whee. i love jiali. she is so cute. and i think she's like the nicest person i have ever met.
jessica is uhmm haha nice to bully. and i like freaking her out. heehee. (: <33
our clique is very small. zomg this sucks. geet & minsi said that their friends think that i am weird. ):
--------------------
cooking today was fun. vimilyn was very amusing because she freaked out a lot (like when the sink was clogged, or when the meat which was supposed to be cut like hog dog buns almost got split in two, and when the sliced apple dropped on the floor and i suggested washing it with detergent.. well you get the idea).
"Well, I wish I could partner Sam. I can look past her freak-Jessica-out faces, her incapability at most things kitchen-related and her warped ideas of stuffing mashed potatoes and chicken into the same plastic bag."
vic.
today was very fun when we thought we could partner each other. then stupid chinese menopausal woman had to make her change back. ahh but at least i had vim.
i am very dangerous with a fruit knife. i sliced vim twice. once because i was walking with it and accidently grazed her arm, and twice because i was going to chop the apple.
it must have been very amusing to see us cutting the green apple for the apple crumble. we practically took turns to jump up. i would cut her and she would jump up and i would cut my self and i would jump.
today's cooking was.. stressful, but i think i work better in stressful conditions. (:
i love jiali. and vic. and jessica.
and cat. but i think she blocked me. ): rawr.
-------------------------
oh today was so scary i thought they called a morning assembly because they found my condom! especially the part when mrs Prama came to address us she was like
"Girls, you must learn to be responsible. in school, in work in every part of your life. [blahblahblah] some of my staff members have told me that they have found.. "
I WAS SO SCARED HERE I ALMOST SCREAMED. but i hope cat likes her condom. (:
crap. 6 letters, and 2 more bags to go.
Sam (: - 8/02/2006 06:41:00 PM