i feel so insignificant. damn. i used to wake up every morning with the idea that the world loved me (if not the whole world, at least a big part of it). and now i m finding that i am more and more wrong everyday.
you toy with my feelings. and i keep telling myself i wont give in to your niceness. but i forgive so easily, and i start to like you again. and i trust, but i keep thinking, will i be hurt again? call me weak.
damn you. i love you too much to give up on what we have and you know it.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
i don't know what to say, i'm numbed because of all the things that have been happening. and i guess my personal problems have shrouded me out too so i can't say much to help you now. because this is how things are, and things change a lot. something like that, i'm so sad i tell you.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
and sam i'm sad too because you didn't really take me seriously when i said i was sad today. i mean its REAL you know. i know you can't help it if you don't know how to comfort me! but sometimes some friends of mine think a person like me all bubbly and blah would never be sad
, so i tried to be like you. says:
and they think i'm joking or seeking attention when i say that
, so i tried to be like you. says:
but the thing is, when i say i'm sad, IM REALLY SAD. because when i'm just abit sad, i wouldn't tell anyone
, so i tried to be like you. says:
i'd fix the problem on my own.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
but i couldn't today.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
i was too tired. emotionally.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
okay.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
i m really sorry.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
i just.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
i was really confused.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
yeah precisely.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
we're in the same boat.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
we can't help each other out until we fix ourselves out.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
and you know what.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
it shows.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
i've been observing all you batchmates.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
it seems like everyone's a little hurt somewhere.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
no.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
but i ve solved it.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
and even though we smile and laugh and joke with our new friends.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
there's still that pain.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
oh.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
oh?
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
there's still a little of us.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
that hurts.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
and we smile. and prance, and act bimbotic and crazy and stuff.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
and try to hide it.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
to make it go away.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
but it doesnt.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
and then you go home.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
and it hurts even more.
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i need to be loved. like sixuan says. when the whole world sees you as a bubbly, high and crazy girl all the time, i m sort of.. dehumanised. and they dont realise that you are sad and stupid and have low periods in your life. they just think you're not being serious. i feel so fake. today was a total facade, trying to cover up my hurts.
but confusing as this is, i still love you. and if you really need anyone to talk to, i m here. i hope, as much as i can.
you toy with my feelings. and i keep telling myself i wont give in to your niceness. but i forgive so easily, and i start to like you again. and i trust, but i keep thinking, will i be hurt again? call me weak.
damn you. i love you too much to give up on what we have and you know it.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
i don't know what to say, i'm numbed because of all the things that have been happening. and i guess my personal problems have shrouded me out too so i can't say much to help you now. because this is how things are, and things change a lot. something like that, i'm so sad i tell you.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
and sam i'm sad too because you didn't really take me seriously when i said i was sad today. i mean its REAL you know. i know you can't help it if you don't know how to comfort me! but sometimes some friends of mine think a person like me all bubbly and blah would never be sad
, so i tried to be like you. says:
and they think i'm joking or seeking attention when i say that
, so i tried to be like you. says:
but the thing is, when i say i'm sad, IM REALLY SAD. because when i'm just abit sad, i wouldn't tell anyone
, so i tried to be like you. says:
i'd fix the problem on my own.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
but i couldn't today.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
i was too tired. emotionally.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
okay.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
i m really sorry.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
i just.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
i was really confused.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
yeah precisely.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
we're in the same boat.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
we can't help each other out until we fix ourselves out.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
and you know what.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
it shows.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
i've been observing all you batchmates.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
it seems like everyone's a little hurt somewhere.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
no.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
but i ve solved it.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
and even though we smile and laugh and joke with our new friends.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
there's still that pain.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
oh.
, so i tried to be like you. says:
oh?
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
there's still a little of us.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
that hurts.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
and we smile. and prance, and act bimbotic and crazy and stuff.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
and try to hide it.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
to make it go away.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
but it doesnt.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
and then you go home.
sam; disappointment. i thought i knew you. says:
and it hurts even more.
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i need to be loved. like sixuan says. when the whole world sees you as a bubbly, high and crazy girl all the time, i m sort of.. dehumanised. and they dont realise that you are sad and stupid and have low periods in your life. they just think you're not being serious. i feel so fake. today was a total facade, trying to cover up my hurts.
but confusing as this is, i still love you. and if you really need anyone to talk to, i m here. i hope, as much as i can.
Sam (: - 7/18/2006 09:13:00 PM