okay this is very very random but OH WHY WHY! why are people singing the school song/national anthem one octave lower! i mean, okay transpose it. but sometimes they transpose it WRONGLY! why! why! why!
Speech day
today speech day was rather stupid because we were supposed to come at 7:30 to warmup and we did nothing until 8:40. the horrors! i was supposed to copy history notes, finish reading two books and possibly mug history. i really do overplan myself. but anyway.
oh mish looked so so weird today. i was like is that mish? and today was highly scary i almost wasnt able to pass the camera to mish to record. (ZAN MY LIFESAVER!). oh yay i love mish she videod it from a mush nicer angle and she did some artsy things with it like panning in and out. and this time CAT SOLO with the accompaniment could be heard! (:
ahh i feel quite sad i have drifted apart from sneha. i havent really talked to her since i shifted sections. but today during lunch sneha was so sweet and funny (: <33. but then she left at one and left me to talk to thashi. which i actually dont know and we got into an animated conversation about wanjoo and zan's crushes. (i just realised it is mildly scary how i talk to people i dont even know o.O)
this year i think i have drifted apart from guiqi fiona and michele and sneha and mavis. and suet. ): but today';s speech day i think i got a bit closer to a lot of them, so yay! (: but i got closer to mish chanel cat geet jac this year. (: is happy. i still want to get to know boey better, and peiying better. and quanquan. i really want to go out one-to-one with her, because i can tell that she's a nice person and i kinda regret not really getting as close to her these one and a half years as i liked. okay my personal goals in choir will be to get close to these people again and get closer to SHIAO i do not want to regret again ahh.
oh cat's mom is very haha cute. cat was like totally pushing her in front of boey and me and "mumbling" to her mom that we were her juniors. i am amused. eeeeeee i was hanging around after speech day because i didnt want to go home and mug history (OMG HOW GROSS).
i think xiumin still hates me. from last year when i was sort of obsessing over her, oh crap i think cat will be like that towards me next year when she comes back to visit. oh crap i really really must step up the drastic plan. oh i know. DO NOT INTERACT WITH CAT FOR ONE MONTH. starting from.. 20th Augush. OH WAIT NO! then i cannot remind her to buy my birthday present.
oh uhm uhm hinthint MY BIRTHDAY IS ON 28th of SEPTEMBER. yes i am very subtle thank you!
our rs is screwed BEYOND BELIEF. i think ms chun is exceptionally nice to our group actually, because she doesnt want people to say that she hates me cause she's teacher in charge of our CCA. but urgh i really think that cassandra should stop promising stuff that is really impossible to deliver and SHE DIDNT EVEN ASK FOR. like a draft of the report? she didnt even ask for that! she only wanted new drafts of our lit review and methodology. ugh okay i am really pissed at myself. i cant believe i forgot about the meeting and studied geog.
i think the amos guy in my cathecism class is really sweet and gentlemanly. okay random, but i feel i have to say this because ugh the guys i know are being MAJOR JERKS.
i hate myself. i think too much about things that are already over and dealt with and closed. (mish you know what i m talking about). its true. i really need attention, because i think that's the only way i can reaffirm that people actually like me. i put up a facade in front of other people, and act extroverted and confident, but its just to cover up the fact that i m really really insecure.): sometimes i feel like i m really selfish, because i need people to say they love me to actually believe it.
i think it stems from the fact that my dad used to say that i would never make friends because i m mean and petty, so now i cant believe that people would actually be so nice to me and be friends with me. such wonderful people would actually pick ME to be their friends. i think i am so blessed. thank you lord, for giving me such supportive friends. who put up with my stupidness my blurness and all. i really, really love you. i dont think you all will ever know how much you mean to me, especially my batchmates. (: i love you guys.
thank God i found you.
Speech day
today speech day was rather stupid because we were supposed to come at 7:30 to warmup and we did nothing until 8:40. the horrors! i was supposed to copy history notes, finish reading two books and possibly mug history. i really do overplan myself. but anyway.
oh mish looked so so weird today. i was like is that mish? and today was highly scary i almost wasnt able to pass the camera to mish to record. (ZAN MY LIFESAVER!). oh yay i love mish she videod it from a mush nicer angle and she did some artsy things with it like panning in and out. and this time CAT SOLO with the accompaniment could be heard! (:
ahh i feel quite sad i have drifted apart from sneha. i havent really talked to her since i shifted sections. but today during lunch sneha was so sweet and funny (: <33. but then she left at one and left me to talk to thashi. which i actually dont know and we got into an animated conversation about wanjoo and zan's crushes. (i just realised it is mildly scary how i talk to people i dont even know o.O)
this year i think i have drifted apart from guiqi fiona and michele and sneha and mavis. and suet. ): but today';s speech day i think i got a bit closer to a lot of them, so yay! (: but i got closer to mish chanel cat geet jac this year. (: is happy. i still want to get to know boey better, and peiying better. and quanquan. i really want to go out one-to-one with her, because i can tell that she's a nice person and i kinda regret not really getting as close to her these one and a half years as i liked. okay my personal goals in choir will be to get close to these people again and get closer to SHIAO i do not want to regret again ahh.
oh cat's mom is very haha cute. cat was like totally pushing her in front of boey and me and "mumbling" to her mom that we were her juniors. i am amused. eeeeeee i was hanging around after speech day because i didnt want to go home and mug history (OMG HOW GROSS).
i think xiumin still hates me. from last year when i was sort of obsessing over her, oh crap i think cat will be like that towards me next year when she comes back to visit. oh crap i really really must step up the drastic plan. oh i know. DO NOT INTERACT WITH CAT FOR ONE MONTH. starting from.. 20th Augush. OH WAIT NO! then i cannot remind her to buy my birthday present.
oh uhm uhm hinthint MY BIRTHDAY IS ON 28th of SEPTEMBER. yes i am very subtle thank you!
our rs is screwed BEYOND BELIEF. i think ms chun is exceptionally nice to our group actually, because she doesnt want people to say that she hates me cause she's teacher in charge of our CCA. but urgh i really think that cassandra should stop promising stuff that is really impossible to deliver and SHE DIDNT EVEN ASK FOR. like a draft of the report? she didnt even ask for that! she only wanted new drafts of our lit review and methodology. ugh okay i am really pissed at myself. i cant believe i forgot about the meeting and studied geog.
i think the amos guy in my cathecism class is really sweet and gentlemanly. okay random, but i feel i have to say this because ugh the guys i know are being MAJOR JERKS.
i hate myself. i think too much about things that are already over and dealt with and closed. (mish you know what i m talking about). its true. i really need attention, because i think that's the only way i can reaffirm that people actually like me. i put up a facade in front of other people, and act extroverted and confident, but its just to cover up the fact that i m really really insecure.): sometimes i feel like i m really selfish, because i need people to say they love me to actually believe it.
i think it stems from the fact that my dad used to say that i would never make friends because i m mean and petty, so now i cant believe that people would actually be so nice to me and be friends with me. such wonderful people would actually pick ME to be their friends. i think i am so blessed. thank you lord, for giving me such supportive friends. who put up with my stupidness my blurness and all. i really, really love you. i dont think you all will ever know how much you mean to me, especially my batchmates. (: i love you guys.
thank God i found you.
Sam (: - 8/19/2006 06:49:00 PM